Not Penny's Boat.

Wow. it's been such a long time since I've posted anything in here !

I should definitely update once in a while... D: !

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Mmk so I haven't posted in a while; busyness. Although Shi posted a meme and I -have- to do it apparenlty >_> So consider this my official "I'm alive" post. I'll also have to post this in her comments as well >__>

So anywho. If you want to do this, reply in comments  with a copy pasted version and answer them o_o.


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:


[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we'll remain friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you have sex with me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

You looked to me in the eyes and lied, pretended to be honest. I knew the truth, never said anything, just to see if your words were real...

You're such a liar. I hope you change your fucking attitude.

In other news, I'm still head over heels in love. :D

Aaron is failing at ChopStick Techniques xD


I'm not though :3 Buwa ha ha ha !


I like this shot :3


Zomg >_< lmao

More Pictures on my Facebook :D
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=680190507

Well, almost done with Season 3 of LOST. IT"S DRIVING ME INSANE O_O.

Today is a beautiful day and Doris, one of my mom's friend, is going to pick me up and go to her place together around noon and we're going to plant a tree  for my mom. She already had planted one for my sister and another for her friends, so she'll have three tree now. I'll take some pics and I'll post them here possibly.

This weekend is mother's day. It honestly sucks.

I've been planting flowers and taking care of new plants and our old... Mom used to do that and hopefully, my flowers are gonna bloom for her for the first time this year. I definately don't have a green thumb, so we'll see what happens ^^

Aaron spends more time than I do in the bathroom. -__-; Lol.

Today; More PT + LOST maybe ? We're at the 3rd Disk of season 2 o_o; WOOT.

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Frame in the middle says my name and Aaron's chinese name :D While the two on each side mean Love And Serenity ^^

So, I've been so busy with starting a new chapter... xD I didn't post in a while. Sorry !!

We've been busy with remodeling mom's room into a computer room. Mom's bed is going to one of my uncle and most of her stuff to one of my aunt. We gave ELEVEN (That's right, 11 !!) garbage bags of clothes to the poor. I kept some and gave some to my family too. It was difficult to get rid of all the clothes and coats and shoes and whatnot, but knowing that it will help others in need makes me smile. And I'm sure it made mom smile as well. But yeah... We bought two new computer desk, a new Futon, set it all up together (omg how many screws did we actually screw. And No pun intented) Got new frames, set up my plants differently... We have an almost finished computer room now :D Which is also our movies room since the sound system on my computer is much better than on the TV in the living room xD

Her are some pictures to those i promised I'd post xD (Sorry for the delay)


 (Aaron's Desk and our movie/Games Rack (Which is a continuation of the one in the living room e_e ) He lacks something on the wall so we're going shopping for that :3 )


(My computer corner and our Buddah Shrine xD !! The frames on the wall mean "Love" and "Serenity" And yes I'm aware that my bamboos have a lot of leaves e_e ) (Can you spot how many pandas there are on my desk alone ? xD)



(That's our new Futon and Mom's fan on our wall. Think the pandas look alike ? They are the same ! Odd thing is that one's mine and one's Aaron, and neither of us new we had the same panda O.O Coincidence ? Not according to Rubi ; ) )

Well, no, I don't have pictures of us yet, but i will once we get his new glasses xD !! AND we still need to go and buy something fr the wall lacking decorations. Last time we went to a flea market  and yes, it was an asian shop. The ladies there spoke Mandarin so Aaron spoke with them and they gave us free stuff. LOL. Yay, connections ! He's my mandarin translator, and I'm his french translator. Although I must admit that he learns really quickly !! Sometimes I don't even have to tell him what people just said, he figures it on his own. Kudos to my super panda !

Anywho.

Oh yeah, aside from that, we've been starting to watch LOST. We're at episode um...10 or something. It's good O.O

Btw. Gas is too fucking expensive these days. 1.29 a Liter ?! WTF. 

It's funny sad how people can, in your hardest times, take a knife and stab you in the back instead of just Live and Let live. You try you hardest to get rid of all the negativity in your life and suddenly, it comes back at you ten times even worse. But should I really call this "worse" ? Or should I call someone that lowers another just to prove to themselves that they might have a purpose in life, a downcast ? A low spirited, miserable soul. Someone who still didn't understand what it's like to truly hurt, to truly live, or even to truly love. I figured... when you have nothing good to say anymore, you attack someone in particular. No ? Well, seems like that's how it works with some people.

Don't get me wrong. I feel no hatred towards anyone who could ever bring me down. Who could ever bring me down, only to cheer themselves up, also. The only feeling I could get out of this is sadness. Or more like disappointed that there is always some people in this world that won't ever let go of their problems while at the same time, try to get some kind of attention from the wrong people, by hurting others. And believe me, it works ! Sad thing, but it really does work. They do get some kind of attention, even if it is a remote, from afar, placed on the web, attention. But then again, we all know that we get most attention from people when things are said publicly on the web. Guilty as charged.

I don't need people to tell me if I'm doing the right things or not. I don't need them, because I know I already am doing the right things. If I wouldn't be, I wouldn't be able to live by myself (Although Aaron is coming home to me tomorrow !!) to pay for everything by myself, to afford food, to afford a roof, a car, to be able to get out where I want, whenever I want... But most of all, to be happy despite all the death scenes that happen around me. To have more people that love me, than miserable souls that hate me. To understand what life really is about. To live well, in a healthy body. But we all, through these thoughts, like it when a smirk comes to our lips. There is no denying in this. And we all deserve a time where we can actually smirk. Where is my smirk ? My smirk, is in these words. The fact that the person who stabbed my heart, again, will read these words even though he/she/it said they wouldn't want to hear from me ever again. Because I know them more than they know themselves. People who take others for granted are all alike. And that is why I want to get rid of them from my life.

I only need a few people around me that love me. And I chose those people to be positive in thoughts, to be helpful, and never to take advantage of me as I would never take advantage of them. If they still go at it, and if they still try to lower everyone around them just to make them feel better about their own lives, then so be it. I don't need unenthusiastic, abrogating people in my life. I've been through so many rough times... There is nothing worse that could ever happen to me. And I had plenty or resourceful, cleaver, ingenious positive and loving people around me through all these times. But there will always be people in this lifetime and after, that will step in your way. Because they did it so many times, why not again, and again... Heh. What I need to work on, is to realize that this world will never be perfect, and that there will always be people around you that will look at you in the most deceptive ways and make you believe things you shouldn't bother explaining. Because deep down, who do you have to prove yourself to ? That's right. Yourself, yourself only.

Tomorrow comes a new chapter in my life. I can't hardy wait :)

Ni si woa da ching ai. Wo ai ni,  my luckiest panda <3

Family first.